This may come as no shock to a few of you. I haven’t exactly been active in a while, I’ve been promising that I would be but…well, I haven’t. Empty promises seem to be my forte recently.

Recent events have led me to the decision to extend my hiatus. I don’t know when, or even if I’ll return to writing this journal, but for the time being, I’m sorry to say, I’m leaving LiveJournal. Several things have led me to this, most of them being either too complicated or too insignificant to divulge here. Things aren’t exactly tough at the moment, but they certainly aren’t easy. I’m sorry to have to do this.

I want to say thank you to everyone I’ve ever interacted with since I started writing this journal. It’s really difficult to put into words how grateful I am to have met the people I did. I made so many friends doing this, and to all of you, I’m so glad I met you.

I suppose the best way to put this, ironically, is in the words of One:

“One day, I shall come back. Yes, I shall come back. Until then, there must be no regrets, no tears, no anxieties. Just go forward in all your beliefs and prove to me that I am not mistaken in mine.”

Goodbye. For now. Thank you all so much.

He had always had the urge to fall.

There was no particular reason for it, no singular event that caused him to end up this way, it was just who he was. It was a part of him, in him, a gut instinct that, when triggered, overrode all logical and rational thought, leaving him with nothing but the command to act. There was no rhyme or reason to it, no way to intelligently explain it, it was just the way he was.

Admittedly, it was not exactly the safest character trait one could have. But he had it.

And so, here he was.

Somewhere.

Ring!

[In case you don't know my name, Nelly = Me]

It was dark and stormy the night Nelly sat alone at her laptop. As it was New England, it was also fairly cold, despite it technically being May, causing her to shiver as she read her latest e-mail from Hofstra University. She was just about to turn off the computer and look over her lines when there came a noise from outside the room. It was old, rusty, and mechanical, like engines trying desperately to fight their way into existence. It wasn’t something she was used to hearing at quarter to midnight in her upstairs hallway, and was something she normally would have gone out to investigate, had her room not been rather suddenly invaded.

“Where the hell have you been?!” shouted the tall, dark haired man now standing in her doorway. Nelly gasped.

“You’re David Tennant!” she exclaimed.

“What?” said the man, “No I’m not, I’m the Doctor.”

“The Doctor is Matt Smith.”

“No, the Doctor is me,” said the man, “and anyway, David Tennant’s still got a few episodes left, doesn’t he?”

“Oh yeah,” said Nelly, “I’ve been a bit out of it.”

“So I’ve noticed!” the Doctor suddenly exclaimed, “When was the last time you updated my journal?! March?! And then you just abandoned me!”

“What? No, I haven’t abandoned you, I’ve just been busy, that’s all.”

“Busy doing what? Watching Yu-Gi-Oh?”

“No! Not…always…I’ve been doing Hamlet! And filling out college forms, and trying not flunk my senior year, and getting ready for prom…do you know how much preparation is involved in going to prom? I mean, really, have you ever been to a prom?”

“It’s not something I like to remember.”

“Oh, I see. Sorry.”

“It’s alright. But does any of that really give you the right to ignore your duties as a mun for two straight months, I mean, what about your communities?! You’ve missed every deadline! You’ve been thrown out of Oncoming Storms!”

“I know, I’m really sorry about that.”

“It’s not my fault you didn’t update. Or even checked Gmail.”

“I haven’t been online! That’s not my primary e-mail address, I’ve been going on long enough to check my college stuff and that’s it. I haven’t even been on AIM!”

“You haven’t been doing anything,” said the Doctor, sternly, “you’ve just ignored me. Forgotten about me. Thrown me to the back of your mind and replaced me with Yami from Yu-Gi-Oh!”

“That was one time!” said Nelly, “And I haven’t forgotten about you. Trust me, I downloaded the Easter special, I convinced my Science Fiction teacher to watch Girl In the Fireplace for an entire class period, I still watch the DVD’s whenever I have a free hour, and I made an obscure reference to the key to time during rehearsal. I even got into an argument with a random couple at Newberry Comics over you! I have my “TARDIS Drivers License” hanging from my rear-view mirror. I promise you’re still my primary obsession, you’re still my muse, and you’re still the reason I write fanfiction.”

“Then why haven’t you been writing any?!”

“Because this is the first time I’ve had more than ten minutes on the computer in nearly three months! I’ve been ridiculously over-stressed! Even my director started to notice I wasn’t acting like myself, which is saying something considering I spend most of my time around her trying to act like Rosencrantz. I haven’t been able to do anything unless it involved high school, college, my sister, or Shakespeare! I know it sounds like I should have had a lot of time, but I just haven’t! I’m sorry.”

The Doctor looked down, and awkwardly scratched the back of his neck. “I see.”

“I know I haven’t really been the greatest mun,” said Nelly, “but it’s only going to be for a little while longer. Hamlet closes next weekend, and I graduate in three weeks. At the moment I’ve got three projects all due on the same day, a play to do, college forms to fill out, a prom to get ready for, an internship to get through, and five classes I have to simultaneously try not to fail. But that’s only at the moment. I’ll be back soon, I promise.”

“Are you sure?” asked the Doctor, “You’ve promised that before.”

“I know,” said Nelly, “But this time, I’m really sure. I’ll come back online, I’ll post, I’ll chat, I’ll be a functional member of internet society again. I promise.”

“I’ll hold you to that,” said the Doctor.

“I’m sure you will,” said Nelly, smiling. “Now, unfortunately, I have to write a ten page paper on a New Hampshire resident I haven’t actually interviewed yet, so, as cool as it is to have the Doctor standing in my bedroom, you’re going to have to go.”

“Oh,” said the Doctor, “Sorry, I’ll…er, I’ll just be going.”

“See you soon,” said Nelly.

“I hope,” said the Doctor. And with that, he turned and left the room, stepping into the TARDIS, now visible in the center of the hallway. Nelly sighed as the engines screeched and the familiar blue box she had been missing far, far too much that past few months, vanished slowly from sight.

[I know I haven't been online much, but it'll only be for a little while longer. Consider me on hiatus for now, but I promise eventually I'll be back. *frustrated sigh*]

"Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.” - Mother Teresa

London, 2003.

He sat alone at a table outside a small teashop, taking a sip from a cup with too much milk and not enough sugar. It was early March. Any snow was starting to melt as people began to realize that could do without the extra heavy coat. He was the only one still bundled up.

A gust of wind blew by and after a moment another man appeared across from him.

( Read more... )

I live.

You may remember there was once another Ten out there...clever_wanderer , I think it was? Yeah, they were there for a bit, and then just suddenly stopped being there. There were no new prompts, no responses to comments, no conversations on AIM, no tags, it was as if this other Ten just randomly vanished off the face of the planet.

Well, that's kind of true.

I'm not sure how many people I've admitted my age to. There was a time when I was afraid to reveal my age, as I was afraid I wasn't going to be taken seriously. I'm only 17 years old. I'll be 18 soon, but at the moment, I'm still just 17. I'm in my senior year of high school which, for some reason, I was told was going to be fairly easy and laid back compared to my other years of high school. Oh how wrong that was.

I suppose it's different for everyone. Some people can take the stress of applying to college while simultaneously keeping their grades up and trying to do what they've always done on the side. It sounds easy, and most people who have been through it have probably told you it is. I usually work well under stress, but I for some reason this time I cracked. I couldn't do it. I was in two plays at once, a scene study, all my classes were honors or AP courses, really, the list goes on. The more I piled on myself, the more I was unable to accomplish, and thus, the more frustrated I became with myself to the point where, somewhere around late January, early February, I completely broke down. I stopped talking to people, I stopped writing, I stopped doing pretty much anything short of what I needed to do for college. I was mad at myself, and couldn't really bring myself to do anything about it. This lasted for quite some time. I'm only now starting to pull myself out of this mood, and I have a feeling that even if I do get into college, it may take a while before I'm back to my old self again.

I am going to try my absolute hardest to get something posted today. Several things, hopefully, since I'm unbelievably far behind in both prompts and tags.I'll also be sure to actually respond to an comments I may get. I apologize profusely for the lack of response in anything, in RP, in replies to comments, in life in general. I would specifically like to apologize to one particular person - who should know who they with the inclusion of the word "temperance" into this sentence - for not being around for nearly an entire month. I'm not sure when I'll be back to talk, I'm not sure when I'll drag myself out of this. There's really no excuse for my inability to write, update, and generally communicate, and for that, I utterly apologize.

I know I've been fairly invisible lately. I know that many people probably won't see this. But to those that do, know that this serves as both an explanation and an apology. Thank you for reading, and as always, thank you for putting up with me.

The clock was wrong.

Yes, he realized there was no actual, measurable passage of time in the TARDIS, and that for the most part, clocks were sort of irrelevant, but at the moment, that really didn’t seem to matter. All his – far too many – clocks were set to the same, randomly chosen time and had remained perfectly aligned since he set them. Only now was one daring to come undone.

First of all, I'd like to apologize to anyone I'm in an RP with, there really is no excuse for my ridiculously infrequent tagging as of late. Well, there is an excuse, but it's not a particuarly good one.

RL has made it somewhat impossible to get on the computer for a while, the combined hectic-ness of classes, two plays, and a few other things causing me to lose a lot of sleep, time, and inspiration. I've basically picked up too much to do. I do this every now and then, I like to be busy, and occasionally, I just over-do it.

Things should be calming down soon, but for a while here, I'm going to be fairly absent. I apologize profusely for this, every time I vanish and come back something seems to come up that causes me to vanish again. It's worse this time because I did it to myself, and thus, am doubly responsible.

I'm sorry about this, and as always, thank you for putting up with me.

I _____ the Doctor.
The Doctor is _____.
The Doctor likes to ______.
I want to _____ the Doctor.
The Doctor can ______.
Someday the Doctor will ______.
The Doctor reminds me of ______.
Without the Doctor it would be _____.
_____ 's song _____ reminds me of the Doctor.
Right now, I bet the Doctor is thinking about _____.
The Doctor makes me want to _______.
If I could spend the day with the Doctor, I'd _____.
If the Doctor was in a movie, he'd be ____________.
The Doctor is made of _______.
_____ is a movie that reminds me of the Doctor.
The Doctor's alter-ego is __________.
I want to give the Doctor ______.

♥ the fanficcers love meme, continued ♥

Edit: Fixed! *is LJ challenged*

Hello!

I just wanted to wish everyone on my f-list Happy Holidays, and an extremely Happy New Year. You have all been so nice, so helpful, and I am so glad I have been able to interact with all  of you. Thank you all for the year, and here's to another  great one!

*raises glass*

Thank you all =D

Past

‘These are but shadows of the things that have been,’ said the Ghost. ‘They have no consciousness of us.’

He is an alien. Previously, he’d assured himself that she was aware of this fact, and that whatever his personality or biology happened to do, she would be alright with. He had thought she could cope, he had been sure she could withstand this – she could withstand anything.

( But she is only human.  )

You may have heard recently about the ice storm that hit Northern New England Thursday night, and how most of New Hampshire has no power. I have a little power, it comes and goes, and at the moment is being used mainly for heating, but basically...we're still dark here. I had to spend most of the weekend either staying with a friend (with a woodstove) or going to a shelter (which is our local high school...woot) which essentially means, I haven't been around much.

They're predicting that we'll have power sometime this week, but they're also saying that there's no real way to tell. I know I've just said that I'm back, and I'm sorry about that, but I'm going to have to go again. I'm not sure when I'll be able to get online again, but for the moment, because this is so unpredictable, I'm going to have to be on hiatus for a bit. I've never done this before, and I'd sort of hoped I would never have to, but unfortunately, I am.

Thank you so much for bearing with me, hopefully I'll be back on soon. =D

"Time engraves our faces with all the tears we have not shed". ~Natalie Clifford Barney

It was dark and cold the day he walked into Donna Noble. Rain hit the shop’s awning above them before tumbling down towards their stiff, shocked figures, each as frozen as the air between them. The busy London street seemed to dissolve as all that remained were the two former companions, standing each with terrified glances towards the other in a strange and dangerous recognition. He wanted to gasp, but all that came was a chilled, meaningless cloud of breath, and a shutter.

1.) The Doctor – “The Lonely God”
2.) The Doctor – “The Bringer of Darkness”
3.) The Doctor – “The One With the Big, Blue Box”
4.) The Doctor – “The One With the Big, Long Coat”
5.) The Doctor – “The Last Time Lord”
6.) The Doctor – “The Last Airbender” (Note: Already Taken)
7.) The Doctor – “The Guy With The Two Hearts”
8.) The Doctor – “Who Really Likes Bananas”
9.) The Doctor – “Who Really Really Likes Bananas”
10.) The Doctor – “Earth’s Champion”

Hello!

So, as you may have noticed I've had about little to no activity for the past two months or so due to a more-difficult-and-vigorous-than-it-should-have-been play I was doing. I got the MASSIVE-spoiler-news-that-made-me-cry, but apart from that, I've been a bit out of it, and I apologize for that, but our final show was last night so for all intents and purposes, I think I'm finally back.

So, what'd I miss?

Hello!

So I was sitting at a desk the other day in a public library which should be the ideal sort of place to write, but I soon realized that it just wasn't going to happen no matter how hard I tried. I have ideas, but none of them are working, and anything I try seems to fall flat.

So, I'd like to put out an open ad for input. Is there anything you'd like to see me do either with or to Ten? Is there anything I haven't done that you would like me to? Are there anything themes you'd like me to touch on? Do you have a hidden desire to see the Doctor dressed up as the Easter Bunny while hijacking the Hood Blimp in a torrential snow storm on the fifth night of Hanukkah? If so, tell me! I am in desperate need of ideas, and I always love a challenge!

I will admit, I'm all kinds of busy right now. I've got more things going on than I think I've ever had going on at once, but I promise, I will try as hard as I can to honor people's requests. If it takes me a while, please bear with me. This goes for RP as well, I promise I'm trying, I'm just a bit out of it. Please help me get back in.

Thank you all for putting up with me again. =D